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sluttylyingliar The only time that Raylan ever woke up before Rachel was when things were bad. Really bad. When Raylan wasn't sleeping and was jumpy and seeing things but as soon as Rachel wakes up and smooths a hand over the cold sheets she knows this feels different.
Panic is held at bay long enough for her to throw clothes on, get Jess up to the Children's office and start searching. It's fucking useless, she knew it the second she woke up but she can't not even try. It's Raylan. It's her husband.
By the time she's stumbled back to the house, shaking and exhausted, it's obvious. She was a fucking moron to ever think she could have this. A house and a family and a long life as someone's wife. Raylan's gone back to his lonely, miserable, backwoods existence and he'll never see his son again.
It's that thought that sends her to her knees in the dirt outside their porch. Jess won't remember his dad, Raylan won't remember either of them and Rachel's more alone than she's ever been. In the blink of an eye it's all gone.
She vaguely notes that the keening, sobbing noise is coming from her as she digs her fingers into her hair, wanting to destroy this place. She wants to burn it all to the ground for what it's taken from her.
Panic is held at bay long enough for her to throw clothes on, get Jess up to the Children's office and start searching. It's fucking useless, she knew it the second she woke up but she can't not even try. It's Raylan. It's her husband.
By the time she's stumbled back to the house, shaking and exhausted, it's obvious. She was a fucking moron to ever think she could have this. A house and a family and a long life as someone's wife. Raylan's gone back to his lonely, miserable, backwoods existence and he'll never see his son again.
It's that thought that sends her to her knees in the dirt outside their porch. Jess won't remember his dad, Raylan won't remember either of them and Rachel's more alone than she's ever been. In the blink of an eye it's all gone.
She vaguely notes that the keening, sobbing noise is coming from her as she digs her fingers into her hair, wanting to destroy this place. She wants to burn it all to the ground for what it's taken from her.
